the one in the mirror

every once in a while it's good to look yourself in the mirror to bring yourself back to reality.

if you do it every day already, then it's good to clean that mirror and take a brand new look at yourself.

you may surprise yourself with what you see looking back at you

procrastination

so at this time as I sit in the library attempting to write my case assignment, procrastination rears its ugly head and daydreaming begins.

I have come to realize that as you grow as a person, there are lines drawn at significant events in our lives. These are the points where we find ourselves growing more as a person and discovering that little bit more about ourselves and what we are capable of.

I walked over a line recently and as I sit and think of the person I've become and all that, I'm starting to kind of like where this is going. Don't get me wrong- all that angst that I missed out on in high school is now coming around and there are still days where I'm not satisfied with who I am but for the most part I have come to like the way I'm turning out.

*snort* how narcisstic can one get...

power mad

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to ownI used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

mark your calendar kiddies!

don't waste the pretty

he's just not that into you

that four letter word

i've never been IN love

but i've fallen OUT of love

stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball
-Damien Rice, Cannonball-

let's talk sex

"When you're nearly 20 and surrounded by guys you can't get. Really sets in."

somewhere in between

i feel your pain.

i want to hold on to that respect i know is due but i can't.

i've also always felt that we'll turn out like them but i wish we won't.

i hope with all my heart that we will break through the bounds that have constricted them.

write our own history, develop our relationship our way.

it's our time. our generation.

agak sedih

saya rasa macam saya ni agak sedih...

begitu banyak tempat saya nak pergi tapi kalau nak pergi sendiri macam malas dan rasa macam lusar je.

tapi kalau saya merancang untuk pergi, rasa macam pergi sendiri pun agak cool.

yang amat menyakitkan hati adalah apabila saya imagine saya pergi melawat semua tempat dengan 'dia'.

so is it all in my head and the fact that i have had no physical closure whatsoever?

is dreaming still happening because nothing solid was ever said?

is it being simply machoistic not saying anything and just pretending that nothing happened?

forgetting would be so much easier if...