'obsessive shadowing'

simply put: an unhealthy way of life

now make like a cow

moooving on to leaner, greener pastures

Give me the will to hold on.

just say it

feel free to say 'No'

just so you know

i want to make it known- my stance

at some point, everyone DOES leave

the question is if they come back, will it be the same ever again?

shameless hussy

my mortification is complete.
now if only the earth will open up and swallow me whole.

a whisper away

i take one step forward as you come nearer.
i can do this.
i freeze.
i think i'll run.
which direction?

as i lay my head back down

just sleep...it can't happen when you sleep

August 23, 2007

Heathrow, London- 6.15 a.m. local time

Yep. So this whole leaving thing wasn’t as easy as it started out to be but when the time actually came, it wasn’t AS hard as I thought it’d be. Yeah, there are heaps of you at home I love and miss but I know like someone told me, it’s time to start a new phase and as much or as big of a challenge this may be, what’s life without it? It’s time to learn to fall in love with another place.

There are hundreds of thoughts that run through my head of about how this whole new thing is going to be like and some of them are good, some are just a plain blank. I think I like the blanks better cause then I won’t have so many expectations.

Let’s hope this goes well eh?

six months on...this is where i am...has anything changed? have i grown any more?

and then.

and then when you've finally found those you're comfortable with...

...reality happens.

people always turn around...and leave.

who needs companions then?

you and me

companionship.

strange thing isn't it?

we all cross paths at one point or another in our lives.

but what keeps us in each other's lives?

how much do we have to have mattered to the other person to keep them in our lives?

how many footprints do we have to make?

why is it we all seem to need some form of companionship throughout our lives?

what's wrong with 'some men or women are an island'?

and then again why is it when surrounded in a room full of people one still feels really alone?

friends forever

i've never been the biggest believer in 'friends forever'

holding everyone at arm's length is the way to go

that way you won't get hurt....

this trip back has changed all that

they've made me WANT to believe in friends forever

so here's that small step i've promised myself to take...hopefully it'll be the first step to the many more i'll take.

Friends Forever

footprints

how much time does it take to make an impact in someone's life?

-Marin, "Men In Trees"-

this is me

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i'll be there for you

it's all about you, you and you

but i also think of me

i think i think of me more

i wish didn't

it makes me a bad person

but i'm always here...regardless

i won't leave

but i might not trust

cliché

in a room of so many

i am alone

and then he said...

"trust me with the amount i worked i deserve that nasi lemak"

-abu on working out and nasi lemak-



p.s. i know this is really random but i loved it! hahaha...

how do i

going away from everything and everyonw i've ever known

yeah i may have travelled on my own thousands of miles away before but i've always been back

who knows when i'll see anyone again?

will i fit in there?

how do i deal?

but i'm excited! it's a new begining!

it's what i've been dreaming of

getting away

starting fresh

who knew i'd be so attatched

those three words

people toss them about all the time.

especially here.

they don't realize the implication behind it.

they become meaningless to some after a while.

where's the magic then?

"those three words, are said too much, they're not enough"

-Snow Patrol-

aliente

Five silver plates line the white washed wall.

it's called a piece of art. but one sees nothing but the plates fron afar.

Walk closer towards the silver plates.

As your breath hits the plates, the faces of the forgotten appear.

with their faces, your reflection also stares back at you

do you remember these people who died? do you REMEMBER what they died for and why?

~Oscar Muñoz~

left behind

i feel so emo.

i feel like i'm loosing some of the people i love most.

i know i shouldn't hold on and that i should just let go and leave it up to fate.

i want to- i really do but i feel somewhat betrayed and that doesn't make sense either.

and letting go? it's easier said than done.

maybe it's something i said and we're definitely growing apart. but i don't want to loose something that's been such a huge part of my life for so long.

so how now?