sticky situation

so i must say i'm impressed! i've blogged quite often enough... granted it's trials and i usually do the most inappropriate things at this time. anyway, here's a thought that occured.

the psych book was open ready for me at page- Lord knows what because of those photocopying 'geniuses', to take in whatever i cared to take becasue psych's tomorrow but of course my ever predictable mind wonders off and it occured to me: Am i a 'sticky' friend?

see i don't do things until cajoled and proded into doing so and no i don't actually wait for someone to do it but it just seems like when someone does i actually contemplate going or doing whatever it is. does that mean i'm only going along with the flow or that i actually ugh NEED people to be with me before i feel comfortable? am i not as i propose a sefl-sufficient chick who does everything her way screw what everyone else thinks?

i have seriously lost sight of who i am. i really don't know anymore. at 12 i would have confidently told you off if you tols me i didn't know who i am. a year ago i thought i knew what i had grew to become from all those' darker days' but today at 18, who am i? i wish i had SOME inkling. everytime i think i've got it something comes up or someone says something or heaven forbid i start along my thinking processes and come up with a thought that just overturns everything i thought. and then we're back to square one.

so, who am i?